My appetite is going from “nothing but miso and water” to “eat every peanut in the house at once” and I am so sick but I have to go to work and put in a better effort than yesterday because I kind of just went through the motions and I think people noticed and I really like this job and want to do well at it so I made a plan to try and get through double the calls I normally do so even if I fail I’ll still beat my expectations and make up for how weak yesterday was and my postnasal drip will NOT STAND IN MY WAY. Not today. Coffee coffee coffee because I HAVE WORK TO DO.
People at my former job, people who fired me, got fired for allegations of kickbacks.
I saw things, I heard things, I know things… so I’m starting to wonder if I ought to contact the author of an article detailing the alleged transactions and tell them things. And if I DO, do I do it anonymously, or not?
This has nothing to do with wedding or fitblr-ing so scroll on by…
Went a little over on my calories because my appetite was fluctuating a lot. It’s almost certain that I’m sick now, but I just slept about 10 hours and I’ve been downing fluids (yesterday and now) like they’re going out of style.
Zucchini, tofu, and vegan cheddar roasted together in the oven; coffee and soy milk .And a banana before all of that.
Oatmeal w/ soy milk and strawberries.
Odwalla bar, banana.
Dinner (where like over 50% of my calories came from):
McMenamins Thai curry bowl (no tofu), fries with ketchup and mustard, and I stole some olives and pickled onions from The Best Friend.
We went to bed around 9:30 and that was bliss. Now I’m on coffee and plan on having all the miso in my fridge today.
I am dealing with some massive insomnia right now. The sudden warm weather, bad allergies, and a variety of factors are making me miserable. I might even have a cold. No gymming right now, so my knees ought to be in great condition when I’m finally up and at it again.
Baked potatoes with vegan cheddar, and coffee and soy.
Roasted carrots and miso.
Banana, yogurt, and Odwalla bar
Roasted zucchini with vegan cheddar, tofu with mustard, and miso
Strawberries and an orange.
I did some arm toning with a hand weight in the morning, and some crunches. My nose is so raw on the inside that it’s perpetually bloody right now and my throat is on fire. I’m going to make some tea and have more miso today so maybe I won’t die.
Ate badly, drank, did no physical activity. The weather was legitimately warm for real, which wiped me out so badly. SO badly. And now we have fans on at night which is giving me nosebleeds, so my sleep is fucked up.
However, I came up with a game plan for the heat - I’m going to be making a lot of salads with grains and roasted vegetables that can be kept chilled and then piled on top of lettuce and other things. It will mean that I can turn the oven on less during the week, and they’ll be healthy, light meals. Pre-made PB & Js for Alex, etc.
I just wanted to hydrate and hydrate but I kept eating and eating. Ugh. I’m on a PLAN, here, world, and I am doing a bad job of staying true to it right now.
How am I supposed to steal things now?
So I have had a couple of celebratory meals and I’m starting to feel like crap! Back on the wagon asap, dude, for reals.
Also, we have a location for our wedding! Alex’s family’s backyard/front yard (they have 3 acres). IT’S GREAT.
BAD EATING BUT GOOD EMOTIONS.
A pretty good day considering I once again couldn’t gym due to knee. It feels SO much better today, so I’m hoping that after a restful weekend, I can ease myself back into a routine. No more running for a little while, but elliptical for sure.
Tofu w/ bbq sauce, coffee w/ soy milk, fresh strawberries
Roasted carrots, old fashioned oatmeal w/ soy milk and strawberries
Soy yogurt and peanuts; diet soda
Pita Pit: Falafel salad (no wheat) with veggies, hummus, avocado - we had a coupon. So I took it home, dumped it over a big bowl of salad mix, added some olive oil and balsamic vinegar (they didn’t put dressing on it for me - how rude). Plus, some roasted carrots.
I juiced a package of strawberries and a few oranges, and we mixed that with vodka. Needed a little pre-Friday buzz to get through some insurance test practice last night.
Exercise: arm weights, stretches, and some sit-ups.
Hit about 1700-1800 calories. Good deal!
Holy crap apparently my knee and I are not friends right now, so I’m taking it easy on the gym and hopefully able to curb my calories a bit to help alleviate it.
Tofu, mushrooms, and broccoli stir-fry, coffee/soy milk, strawberries (got a really good deal
Iceberg mix, a cup of pinto beans, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
Salad (same as lunch, but instead of pinto beans, chickpeas with some sweet chili sauce), tofu, potatoes and ketchup
I also had Diet Dr Pepper and some crystal light
No gym; about 1700 calories. No gym today either, but I’m using my 8 lb hand weight to work on my arms (which I’ve been intending to, as all the wedding websites are all like “dude your arms are the only area you need to care about” and I totally intend to wear at least cap sleeves but hey, muscles) and do some sit-ups, stretches, whatever.
My kneecap feels better today, but it looks like the main emphasis is to rest it from work until it feels better. It felt okay when I woke up today (after being in an elastic bandage all day yesterday), but now it’s definitely saying “not ready yet, please give some more time” so I’ll have to figure out how to cardio without aggravating it. I am NOT going to injure myself like I did last year EVER AGAIN.